Story of my life ,

I have the urge to give up ,

I’m tired of life , i’m tired of listening to my family argue everyday , i’m tired of going home to a broken family , i’m tired of being neglected , i’m tired of hearing my cousin say , “the only thing she care about is her boyfriend.” I’M TIRED OF GETTING COMPARED , i’m tired of explaining myself , when no one trys to understand about MYfeelings]: i’m tired of not being able to trust people , not being able to vent to my own friends , i’m tired of bottling things up inside , i’m tired of not being able to concentrate in school , because of the things thats going on . I tell myself day by day , that I can do it , if I TRY . I try so hard in school , but once I get home , i’m home with a broken family , &then everything just feel like it’s callasping . &then the ONE person who , I never wanna see when i’m at my lowest , is the person I always end up calling for help , when I need something , when i’m crying like theres no tommrow , is the person who’s always there . Why ? I ask god everyday , “Why me ?” Yeah , he gave me this life to live because he knows i’m strong enough to live it ? &what if i’m not ? I’m have the urge to give up , I have the urge to just walk away from all of this , I have the urge to say “fuck it , I don’t need this .” I have the urge to walk out on everything I once stand up for , but then I ask myself ? Where would I go ? Who will be there for me ? So once again , in this very room , with four white walls . I turn to you , tumblr …